I a very tired. I am suffering from chronic pain. I am unsure of how to heal and pursue happiness and find a life that is conducive to healing and joy.

I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know what the solution is.

I don’t know where to begin to find a job.

How do I find a job that is not a danger to me?

How do I find a job that is not a danger to all those around me?

I feel the worst thing I could ever do is obtain a job in any kind of retail that would endanger countless lives and expose me to countless harmful people.

I feel the worst thing I could ever do is obtain a job in any government sector, because that has proved to be a great avenue for invasion and trickle down gossip and harassment and abuse. It is only another means for them to harass me.

I don’t know what to do.

I am tired.

I feel lost.

I feel horrified.

SEVEN YEARS of my life I have had to endure the most cruel and inhuman, criminal, emotional and mental torture and abuse.

What kind of life is ahead for me?

Where do I go?

Seven years ago I took a leap of faith believing my government would step in to protect and move me to a secure location and enable me to continue in this gift of seeing.

Rather they sought to murder me.

Where do I go?

What do I do?

When I attempted to earn a living off of a blog that would enable me to stay home when I needed to feel safe, they invaded my blog behind the scenes to hinder it.

When I attempted to even create my silly t-shirt shop, they have actively prevented me from being able to set up payee information.

There is nothing I can do that they will not invade and attempt to destroy, or see as an avenue to further harass or abuse me.

I am tired.

I don’t know what to do or where to go.

I pray daily. Most days I simply pray that He would just come get us all and take us home.